Background: Finnick has hallucinations so realistic he often can’t tell what was real and what wasn’t real for several hours and sometimes days after. He has reoccurring hallucinations about a man with a crimson smile and blue breath that steals those he loves away from him. Sometimes he disbelieves the existence of people in his life, if they had been a part of his hallucinations because of his inability to decipher the difference between reality and what was projected from his mind.
Childhood: Finn started having hallucinations at he age of 15, causing him to push everyone away in attempts to keep them safe from the fact that he was crazy. His parents had it drilled into his head that because of the disorder he was less than human. His parents were very cold, stern, and unaffectionate. Displaced resentment towards the fact that they disliked each other and married for the sake of the baby. He had plenty of friends until he started pushing people away—and even then he was always drawing knew people in with his charm and bright smile.
Personality: He’s insecure about himself and his disorder—choosing to be rather secretive about it and closed off about his problems. Since he refused to keep close company after his diagnosis, he became a bit of a slut. He would charm a person into bed and casually hook up—but never start serious relationships with anyone—for their sake. He would refer to the action of such as ‘the Familiar’. Other than his use of human company in the past, he is a very sweet, affectionate person.
I love you… I thought we were never going to leave each other, Finn. Y-You were supposed to be my strength, and I was supposed to be yours. Bryce disappeared just like you did. Please… I-I… I can’t lose you again.
I don’t want to, Julian. I don’t want to leave you.. but I think I have to. I think in order for you to help Bryce, you need to stop worrying about my stupid fucked up mind. I’m not going to get better, but Bryce can. He needs you right now.. I.. I love you. I love you so much, but I.. I just..
I’ve been looking for you for a week, Finn! I’ve been looking…
I just… Stop. Stop saying all these things about how you’re a burden… Stop it. You’re never going to be any type of a burden to me because you’re you. You’re perfect. I-I need you, Finn. I need you.And I know you need me too. Please… Don’t do this. I love you… I’m real. I’m always real. I’m always going to be here, even when we can’t physically be together like right now… I’m here. Always. Please… I just… I’m real…
Love, don’t leave me now.
Julian, I just don’t think you need to handle my problems right now. You have to be there for Bryce. He needs you. I’ll be fine.. I just.. I love you too much to let you do this to yourself. Not when I can hardly be there for you. I love you so much, Julian..
D-Don’t. Just don’t. Don’t you dare…
J-Julian, I.. You and I haven’t even.. spoken in weeks. I.. I can’t be a burden for you anymore.
Y-you’re not here.. and I.. I can’t tell what’s real anymore. I can’t tell when it’s really you.
I… Um, okay…
I.. Fuck, I miss you. I uhm.. I t-think we need to..
I’m here, gorgeous.
I think.. we need to talk.
Oh, please! Finn you’re so amazing I’m sure everyone does, what about Jules?
Me and Josh spent the week in Miami and he proposed…
He’s been locked up in his room, busy with song writing.
That’s fantastic, Rissa! I’m so happy for you.
Don’t hide, because I miss you and everyone else probably does too.
Oh! Guess what?!
No one really misses me. I don’t know if half the people here are even real anymore.
Because everyone is borning lately.
Where have you been? I’ve missed you, Finn!
I’ve missed you, too. I’ve just kinda been hiding in my room..
Shh, your throne of lies is showing. The only beautiful one in this corridor is you.
Do you want to let me inside that flawless head of yours? Or should I try to distract you?
Stop your lies, Evans.
Please, please distract me.
Impossible, because I missed you most. Don’t lie to me, Finn. I thought we didn’t do lies. How are you really?
You’re beautiful, you know. I’m just dealing with a lot inside my head.
And the corridors just became 1000 times better. How’s it going, flawless? I missed you.
I’ve missed you more, perfection. I’m.. I’m alright.